i dunno what to say just cut it out

i knew deep inside that i had an angel heart

knowing from the start that i was monitored

i show them i was bored,i stupidly think that i am only talkin on the same person

i act like a morron then i realized this is not me and remembering all the things that makes me smile i started to cry.

think think think all the time

still i was blind. 

for those people who laugh and talk about shit on me its fine

this is my first time i learn to love 😦 sad to say its perfect timing for killing my feelings. life is beautiful and was fool. my life is miserable

while am struggling the pain like am almost dying. the other one is enjoying talking

with numbers of brainy individual. i am not smart. even thou my friends thinks uma retard. i guess its time. not for showing everyone that im the man.

but to be an ordinary human. i aint no good. i cant provide even my own food.

i am a trying hard, low standard bastard guy with no future and i accept

im not bright. 

IM JUST TIRED OF WAITING ON SOMEONE TO TELL ME THE REAL THING.

IM TIRED OF EVERYTHING. ACTING INOCENT THAT I NEVER WATCH THE CCTV

they talks codes i recognized. they make blogs it freaks my mind. i never slept coz i read those files. my heart dies when i heard lies. that’s too much for my not being nice sometimes. i want you to realize that the thing i improvise is for something i wanna satisfy.

REMEMBER MY HEART

That

loves you from the start.

proud to tell everybody your my one and only

and believes those loves story

your the girl i wanna marry

kissing and telling you iloveyou honey when your sleeping beside me

i wake up early to make you a coffee

those breakfast time we had was the best days

i can’t explain how much im inlove

i never distract

coz i hope you will love me back.

sittin on my back at my motorbike,runnin fast even its deadly we could crash i feel your trust

i bought you a flower just to make you feel better

those words i told you on your birthday

if you remember.

YOUR MY PURE LOVE IM SORRY IF IM NOT PERFECT TO MAKE YOU HAPPY FROM THE START BUT THINK ABOUT THE NIGHTS AS I ALWAYS SAY

I NEVER LET THE DAY ENDS WITHOUT MAKING MY HONEY SMILE.

its not a saint so dont hesitate

all i wanna do is to be great

eat on your plate hard like a gate

im with my teammate we create the best rate

i can wait until i got laid but i will not paid

call your mom because you’ll gonna be late

i fuck you with my face looks i hate you

deepinside i like you

so many guys who lick you

that eats my ego

for tonight i never think about to kill you

becoz i love you haha

i speak by write
but
not sure if this is right

now am slow
not as fast i was BEFORE
blazing some goodshit
is a badhabit i love it

“back to school” is my dream
but distracted. it breaks my eye magnet
and be so attracted. not by net but by meth.

i remember when my net back and meth again
BDO we finds ways living each others surely
but i pick up the great answer for best question and no need
to mention the truly intension of being salvation

Sweet Lines with rhyme

from
bitter to better
about her its over
the pain not stronger
this summer is colder
stoner to prayer
sinner to believer
eyes that cries eyes that smiles
guy needs guide guy lives with god.

Pain in the ass

The connection on someone makes me feel distracted. Let’s say it better if i see the “whatever” than someone tells another story of my assasination. I felt insecure. why some people can’t show who they really are? why they need to hide the the badass thing on someone mind. this is more painful for a guy that believes there is a day to give it a try and enjoy the ride. All i can do right now is to wait and be patient. i never get jelous to the one who train my cat but please dont abandon the dragon and give it a peace of mind

SAY GOODBYE TO DRUGS

MY HEART IS ACHING IT IS ACTUALLY ACHING.

THE FUCK AM STILL MAKING BLOGG, THIS PAIN IS MUCH MORE LIKE HAVING A SHATTERED GLASS INSIDE  MY CHEST WHILE MOVING AROUND IT CUTS EVERY NERVES. I REMEMBER  THE TIMES HOW BAD I WAS, A LOT OF PEOPLE DISCUSS THAT DRUGS IS BAD BUT I ASK MY SELF WHEN I LOOK AT THE MIRROR I SPOT THE TEARS FROM MY FACE. I REALIZED THAT I LOOK CRIMINAL STRESS AND ETC, I DREAM AGAIN TO WATCH MOVIE  FROM  CINEMA WITH HER. IN THE TIME THAT IM  THE ONLY ONE INSIDE HER HEART., I BEGIN TO AVOID THE THING DRUGS  THAT MANY PEOPLE HURT WHEN THEYS SAW ME LOOKING TIRED AND STRESS.

I BELIEVE THE POWER OF GOD THAT HE WILL GUIDE ME TO MY DREAMS

TO BE CONTINIUE

The LESS QUEEN Game FRIENDSHIP

I spent a lot of time searching for a SOLUTION for my anxiety. I look older, i always tell the others that i will be better. its not that easy duh! I pray to god and ask for power. POWER to avoid the things that makes me weaker. Then i compared my life’s like a game of chess. I feel TERRIFIED because strongest ONE that i had has been CAPTURED. (lesson in life) strong people i believe that never leaves untill the games ends was a mind destruction. We feel WEAK without a QUEEN but it doesn’t mean you’l let those bastar WIN. The Remaining moves is my friend. (it happens on reality) they will sacrifice their value to protect you. 

THATS LOVE

A Video Interview of Me, From Amazon, About “The End of All Things”

please think about the times i make those pretty face smile. help me

Whatever

Here you go. No real spoilers or anything. This was recorded at BEA last week. Enjoy!

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SIGNS THAT KILLS MY VIBES

FOR THE SAKE OF GOD EVEN I KEEP AWAY FROM THOSE BLOGS IT MAKES MY HEART BREAK. ME EGO IS SO DUST LIKE ALL THE THINGS SHE DONE SHE LEAVES A MARK OF A THING THAT MAKE ME FEEL DOWN.

I DONT CARE IF YOUR VERY SATISFIED WITH DR. SUZUKI YOUR ALWAYS MENTIONING. I WANT YOU TO REALIZED THAT I AM NO SUPERMAN.

Pray for One

praying is the best thing to do in someone doing like evil

theotherJC

We had a great time of prayer last night at the Dolphin centre, just a group of ordinary people who gave up their night in or night out to come and believe God for the future of Xcel Church Darlington. It excited me as the Pastor to capture their heart for what could be.

During the evening I got them to write down the name of one person. One person they could pray for everyday. This is a simple challenge for every leader and Pastor in churches…pray for one person. (Actually a Christian of any age can do this). Everyone should have someone in their world who is not a Christian – could be a work colleague, family member or your neighbour.

Here’s the challenge:

Don’t bash them on the head with your Bible
Don’t scare them off with some ‘Thus saith the Lords’
Don’t tell them what they are…

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